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[Dec. 16th, 2005|11:55 am] |
i fucking hate this day every things been fucked up
i broke my cell phone screen so now i cant see anything on it
and im just pissed off
i get my paycheck today but not till the banks are closed that makes me really mad cause i cant go blow it on drugs
i need something right now cause being sober is just making me wanna kill ppl
i wish i had a girl to cuddle with that would make my problems go away
if i had a girl i wouldnt need drugs ne more but i would still do them for fun just wouldnt need them
cause right now i cant go over an hour without smoking cause of all the shit its been going down n i just dont wanna think about it
i want to either get away from here and start over or find someone soon cause if not im leaving jan 3rd
i want a gil that would care about me and wanna live with me
i cant sleep alone at night bad things happen
i just want some one to show me they really care ppl say they do but no one has proved it |
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[Dec. 11th, 2005|02:23 pm] |
i hope u dont mind i told nate you were a freak
i love shake that from eminem feat. nate dog
i have to many friends i feel bad i cant chill with um all all the time but i work n shit n need another job to |
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| last day of school |
[Dec. 8th, 2005|11:58 pm] |
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and my report is such crap im gonna fail lol i need to find a full time job |
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| show last night |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|03:10 pm] |
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was fucking awsome end of story check my myspace blog it tells about it met some cool new ppl |
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| monday |
[Nov. 28th, 2005|01:37 pm] |
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i looked at that camero its really nice just needs a bit of work on interior some nobs are missing but id put new head unit in anyway and the engine had lil bit smoke coming out that made me sad cause that car is beautiful and i want it but i dont like that smoke hopefully its cause it needs oil change im sendingmy mechanic to go look at it |
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| black friday and no sleep |
[Nov. 25th, 2005|11:19 am] |
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i been shopping at 5am last 2 days and i havent slept im tired so im bout to go to sleep after i get myspace to work ts being gay i waited in line for 10 gift card to sears for first 200 ppl and some fag pushed me outta the line so i put his lights out and left before i could get introuble so im not going back to sears again um what else i want a car! my mom let me drive her truck home since i stole her keys and wouldnt unlock the door so that was fun thats all for now |
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| what did i did i do to deserve all of this |
[Nov. 23rd, 2005|09:48 pm] |
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yeah i was trying to be nice and get joshes and my moms computers connected to the internet we'll while doing that my computer died tring to upload all the new shit so theres would work and my moms gonna yell at me cause my computer doesnt work and i dont wanna here it myspace and aim both arnt working right now and i need to talk to someone but cant get ahold of them this fucking suck tommarow i get to see kelly maybe that will cheer me up ive been in such a shity mood latly just everything is going down hill the only good thing is i got a job but they never even called me with my scedual so i gotta call them tomarow dam shit sucks so bad right now i want my car back i want my computer back i wanna get on myspace to leave some one a message and i wanna go on aim cause if there on it will be faster EVERYTHING IS GAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY fuck adfasd;fljahlsfd;fasdljf dammit im mad i hate to be the next GUY to piss me off cause ill prob stab um or even worse im not kidding im fucking pissed right now |
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| hmmm |
[Nov. 22nd, 2005|09:27 pm] |
hey im dustin and i wanna kill myself to bad i have friends that would miss me but i just dont want to live anymore my life is fucking pissing me off and im done trying to be happy the only thing that would make me happy is to be dead cause then i wouldnt have to go thru this hell at least i get to see my best freind and spend time with her on thanksgiving since my family doesnt want me with them
yeah and im talking to ppl on aim and what there telling me just makes me feel worse how there so happy and all this and they just got this and that and they like so and so and blah all i get is yelled at by my mom
i need this job so i can get an appartment and save up and get away from everything
but knowing me i wont get hired but u know what thats just a little bit of what i hold in and dont tell ppl about me
and i can still put a smile on my face for everyone to see
not like if i even had a problem i would have anyone to talk to cause everyone abandoned me
so maybe i should just go to camden with a shirt that says i hate niggers and let one shoot me
fuck that im just gonna move so im leaving unless shit changes by my birthday if it doesnt good bye everyone |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2005|10:51 am] |
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i have school n dentist today i want to get some perks but i dont wanna route canal to get them but i think ill deal n get the canal tho it will prob hurt my birthday is coming up soon schools ending im so far behind maybe i should pay attention today the only thing keeping me going is the few ppl i met on ms there being better friends then any one right now i think im gonna go shoot some ppl so ill finish this later |
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| fucking lame |
[Nov. 22nd, 2005|01:14 am] |
yeah shits been fucking lame latly its like im not allowed to have problems when ever some one calls me and has a problem i stop everything to talk to them about it when ever i have a problem and call someone they are always like im busy ill talk to you later and hangs up before i can say its important so from this day on i dont have any problems and im perfectly happy
thank god for my new friends i met casue there being better friends right now then the ones i had its like casue i dont have a car they forgot about me i mean i have legs i can walk to see them and i would in a heart beat but they dont even ask
IM FUCKING HAPPY so fuck it ill deal |
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[Nov. 17th, 2005|07:55 am] |
as i lay dying dec 2nd at the troc cant fucking wait
i need my hair cut who want to do it?
bedtimetiredsottylbye. |
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[Nov. 15th, 2005|11:21 am] |
school today lame
truck working nmaybe thatd b cool
that things got pick up lol cause its a pick up truck
alright shower
later |
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| last night |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|06:44 pm] |
last night was interesting
i dont like girls that are confusing
i didnt understand alot of what happened last night
y cant i just fast forward my life to having a house and being married with a decent job |
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| good mood for once |
[Nov. 12th, 2005|11:50 pm] |
tiffs over and were having fun i think?
lol
tell u bout rest later |
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| josh is gonna be gone |
[Nov. 11th, 2005|02:44 am] |
josh went to a party it got busted hes in police station and when his real parents find out there gonna send him to a ranch somewhere and im gonna have cops watching my house for a while now wich fucking sucks
what a bad way to end a night bout to go finish this |
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[Nov. 10th, 2005|12:52 am] |
hmm every day goes by there is a new twist coming into play its fucking nuts i had the longest phone conversation of the year with brittany today well it was morgan half the time to but we talked forever like 2 hours in 2 dif calls and there gonna meet me at the mall tommarow i have 2 interviews 3:30pac sun 6:30 regal at mtown mall
girls need to not be so fucking complicated there for im going to bed and not worring about them an the way they fuck with ppls heads |
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[Nov. 9th, 2005|06:29 am] |
I WANT A GIRL THAT:
has good taste in music
that will care about me as much as i do her
that likes going to shows
can sleep over once and a while
is 16 or older
hmm bout to fall back asleep finish later
i like a few ppl now
just waiting for one to care about me back
being lonly sucks and puts me in a bad mood
im sick of being alone |
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| blah mood |
[Nov. 9th, 2005|06:16 am] |
i dont even know whats going on anymore
things are going weir with the girl i like she almost didnt want to hang out with me cause of what might happen she was saying she was afraid to fall in love with me cause she doesnt wanna date anyone
so yeah
then other ppl i liked in the past still havent changed anything
well when december comes if i dont have a reason to stay im gonna be gone
i just want to be in a realtionship thats gonna last i want some one to care about me in that more then a friend wy and i want someone to care about to and to cuddle with at night
i miss cuddling
I LOVE TO, HATE, BUT I DONT CARE ANYMORE
http://whatego.com/ref.php?id=15411
best site ever cause its not myspace and u get to upload more pictures |
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| boo |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|02:10 am] |
things didnt go as planned i didnt get to see her tonight
so im chilling here bored and lonly
i found a few plants today and im gonna get um hopefully
i want things to work out
we'll do some drugs we'll fall in love we'll get fucked up |
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[Nov. 5th, 2005|04:42 am] |
now*
well its about 8am and ive been up all night thinking about this girl that has come in my life and shes like the female version of me i just hope i dont get hurt ill know after sunday cause thats when im hanging out with her
I CANT WAIT
this is the happiest ive been in a while and monday JOB INTERVIEW
my lifes finnaly turning around but out of all things i ask for a chance with this girl and for it to last
and i cant stop listening to hollywood undead
there good a hell |
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